There was a time, i felt that things that i deal with is mine. Everything, i should say. People, connection, work, family, friends and some other things. And i do realize some of them were already gone, has went away from me, with no reason. Even though i feel like its mine, but to be frank, i don't mind they were going off. I just let it go. Maybe because it happened in the period of processing, the journey of my life at that time are rolling, things happened at up and down. It was understood.
Somehow, i don't feel the same now. For me the journey already end and i am at my destination now. I had brought all the things of mine along, together to reach this destination, and i can't let anything go, because its mine, and we had been through all the bitter sweet together along the way.
But things still go away, and i feel so sad.
Why is it so hard to let it go? Deep inside my heart, i knew that everything is actually not mine, that just the feeling of ownership, which is just an instrument to make me feel safe and stand as a good person with a feeling, i have everything.
Unfortunately, i think this is not my destination yet. Things still happen. The show still rolling. And i should let things go and command my self, its not mine, never will, never have, they just drop by and then gone with the wind. And i think i have use these words several times, and i have to say it again,
Just live with it, i should know.